So as some of you might noticed I reset the day on the days on the title. As some of you might know, I originally started the count up to indicate the days that I parted with Ella. This reset, has no association like that. This time, I reset the day up because of a realization. A realization that in all realty, is shifting me to think about what most of us want in a relationship. We all want different things in someone. Including me. We all crave for that perfect guy/girl that we believe would make us give up everything we have for that person. We want that terrible feeling of missing someone in the middle of the night. HopIng and waiting for that person to call. We want that feeling of dependency which we will talk to that person all night on the phone. What is that feeling? Love? Are we really? In love?
I might sound like a realist.
We would always do things that trigger our mind to think that we are in love or the idea that she wants me. I believe that this is because we place so much value in the things that we see or hear in the media. We all crave that feeling, myself included. I want to hold my girl in the rain and tell her “you completed me” like the scene in the notebook. I want to kiss my girl in the middle of the crowd with grand musical on and everyone looking at me envying my romance. We all want that, no? But let’s be realistic, my significant other will crave that. But would they really want that reenactment?
The point I am trying to say is that, what we want, is really not what we might see. Because, no one is perfect in this world. There are always flaws. We wills always get a different outcome even when we try to. Reenact the same scene. Let’s be fair again, I will say most of the time with most of the people in the world.
I remember when I first met this girl, actually i think most of the girls I met. They will always tell me that they don’t like this or that or dislike certain things. Eg. I don’t like to Drink or smoke. I don’t like to get expensive things. After times passes by, the true self will usually appear. They will go “hang out” with friends which leads to getting to drink or smoke. They will start getting this new gadget which looks cute and it is very useful. We tend to be able to find the right exceuse to get to these things. Smart, aren’t we?
In all reality, we really just need to live thru the flaws . That’s if, we really truly love the other half. Some can do it, but some, just take a long time to realize the hard truth. That, it is not going to work. Obviously, we are going to see the flat out “this is not going to work in like a week”. On the flip side, we will see the one that simply lie to themselves and say that time will change a person. Can we do this??